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Saturday, April 20, 2013

Guatemala 2013: I went, I saw. I'm back, I'm forever changed!


Hey friends! In case you wanted an in-depth saga of my trip to Guatemala, welcome. Here we are. Enjoy! I hope you can pretend you were with me on this journey! 

1) What did I do?
  Of the 8 families Redeemer’s House has “adopted”, I had the joy of mainly working with 2. I was able to help give Dominga and Katarina’s families’ basic food needs and work on several projects for each of them.
   Dominga was a single mom with 9 children and an elderly mom and 6 pets to take care of, and all of them lived in a house the size of your living room. Her landlord evicted her the first day we were there because she couldn’t pay rent, and we helped her move 50 feet down the road to a new home that she also couldn’t afford. Someone in the States would have called their possessions trash, but every item was treasured and we had to make sure it all arrived safely at the new house. Three of the younger girls, Irma, Melissa, and Miley, stole my heart with their sweet smiles, songs, and beautiful laughter! We got to play with them, read to them, and let them do our hair. The last day that I saw them, Miley clung to my legs and called me “Mama” and told me she loved me—in English. Needless to say, I wept.
   Katarina and her two kids, Giovanni and Deborah, lived in an old boat shack with one room, two beds and an outdoor stove. Their neighbor’s pit bulls wandered free and were dangerously close to the kids, who were home alone most of the time. We had the opportunity to build Katarina a shelter over her outdoor stove, which was incredibly difficult work. When we gave her family the food for the week, little Deborah ran out saying “Food! Food! Food!” and started eating a cantaloupe through the rind. It broke my heart to think this might have been the only food she’d eaten in days.
   Twice a week, we volunteered at an after school program that Redeemer’s House started. This program teaches children about the gospel of Jesus, but also teaches them basic skills they need for survival such as reading, writing, and dental hygiene. We taught the kids how to sing Jesus Loves Me in Spanish and taught them that Jesus is their friend, and seeing them understand and then sing with joy melted my heart. Since I speak Spanish, I was asked to read a Bible story to the kids in Spanish. It was cool to use that gift that the Lord has given me—and actually be good at it! I also got to lead a group of 7-8 preschoolers, and teach them to use fine motor skills by coloring. It’s amazing and heartbreaking to see that some of the kids can’t do basic crafts because they are so developmentally behind due to malnutrition and lack of care.
  Twice in the afternoons, women from the community came to our mission’s house to teach US something. Dominga and her family taught us how to make tortillas, which she normally sells for 1Q (about 12 cents). This was SO difficult and humbling. Little Miley could make a tortilla in under a minute, and it took me a good 15 minutes to make a misshapen lump. We then bought all of the tortillas we had made from her, giving her about 150Q, and then we ate them for dinner! Let me just say…they were delicious. Another day, a sweet woman named Sebastiana taught us how to crochet flowers that are generally used on clothing. Only one person on our team was able to make them, and she was an art major (so it wasn’t even fair!!). This teach-a-trade program enabled the women to have dignity and respect for themselves, seeing the rich white people not being able to do what they do every day for a living!

Fun Things and Facts:
·      The last day we were in Guat, we kayaked on the Lago de Atitlán (Lake Atitlán). Some brave girls (myself included) swam in the lake! It was cold, but so worth it.
·      We got to go shopping on la calle de Santander, which is essentially a tourist trap, but gives a lot of families income. Not only did we get cool things, we got to bless people financially!
·      In Panajachel, you travel either by foot or by standing in the back of a pick-up-truck. I prefer the latter.
·      Stray dogs are everywhere.
·      Some of the kids we met had already lost their teeth to decay, either from lack of hygiene or excess sugar.
·      You can’t flush toilet paper in Guatemala, and sometimes the water doesn’t work.
·      To drink fresh water, you either have to buy a purifier or drink water out of packets. All drinks are lukewarm, always.
·      “Te extraño” can either mean “I’ll miss you” or “I think you’re strange”. I’m still unsure which one I got told, but I cherish it either way!
2) How have I been impacted?
Gosh. I think a better question would be how HAVEN’T I been impacted? I’m so humbled. How dare I take anything for granted anymore? One day, there was an elderly woman digging through our trash to find food, wrapping our days-old BBQ in our used toilet paper. The fact that I can flush my toilet paper and eat 3+ meals a day makes me feel so blessed. I’m always quick to complain, but remembering seeing people I love with literally nothing snaps me out of it very quickly. Lord, let me not be blind with privilege. Give me eyes to see the pain.
Although the families I worked with had nothing, their faith was incredible. If they knew Jesus (some of them didn’t), they CLUNG to Him. They knew what it was like to have Jesus be their literal daily bread, and to have Him fill them up because they have nothing else. I, who have never been empty handed in my entire life, don’t understand this utter dependence on Him but I PRAY for it. I desire it. I am so quick to replace Jesus with meaningless things in this life, but He is the ONLY thing that will truly satisfy. I pray to someday have faith like a Guatemalan.
Above all else, I’m inspired to DO SOMETHING. We had the opportunity to pray over several brothels, and to look inside and see real women in sexual slavery. Some of these women were trafficked there from other countries, but some were just desperate to put food on their tables. I listened to the men, calling out to our team in Spanish degradingly, and my heart broke for the way these women are treated everyday. I pictured my sweet little Guatemalan girls ending up this way in the future, and couldn’t handle it. I have to do something about this. We, as the Body of Christ, MUST do something about this. Now, more than ever, I’m in it to END human trafficking.
To be honest, I’m still processing all the ways that the Lord moved while I was in Guatemala. I see Him changing me everyday more into His likeness, and I am so grateful for that. But until the day that He calls me back to Guat, I pray that I would serve Him on the mission field HERE in Kennesaw. It would be foolish to come home and treat my peers the same as I did before.
Thank you for going on this journey with me! I pray for you, that you would be influenced by my story and seek to glorify Him in all that you do today. 

Peace, blessings, y Jesús te ama! 

-Anne

Nadie tiene mayor amor que este, que uno ponga su vida por su amigos. 
-Juan 15:13

Saturday, January 12, 2013

David & Bathsheba: A mind-blowing new view on GRACE

Yesterday, I was blown away by the power of grace as seen in the story of David and Bathsheba. It's a well known story (found in 1 Samuel 11-12). You've probably heard it before. I know I'd heard it a million times.  

But yesterday, the Lord opened my eyes to the power and intensity of His love and grace for ME through this story! Aaaaaand I'm really excited about it. So that's why this is here. 

So David, King of Isreal, man after God's own heart, commits these huge no-no's. He sleeps with his friend Uriah's wife while he is out at war and OOPS, gets her pregnant.  He tries to cover it up by bringing Uriah home from war and giving him a rest-- he wants him to sleep with Bathsheba so no one would ever think that David is the baby daddy. 

Uriah, being an honorable man, refuses this luxury and won't go home to his wife out of respect for his soldiers still at war. Good dude. 

So David gets him drunk, thinking OBVIOUSLY this will fix everything. But Uriah still remains faithful to his soldiers and won't go home. 

David then has this BRILLIANT idea: "Okay. If I can't get Uriah to do what I want, I'll just send orders to have him killed off in battle. Then I can swoop in like a victorious eagle and take Bathsheba as my own wife! I'm a genius! Everything is FIXED! HUZZAH!" 

Wrong. 

Things happened the way David wanted them to, but the Lord was displeased. He sends a prophet, Nathan, to tell David "Listen, broseph. You've screwed up. The Lord anointed you, delivered you, and set you apart as king. He would have even done more for you. And this is how you repay him? Not okay, dude. Not okay." 

He then tells David that the sword will never depart from his house, and that the child born to him by Bathsheba would die. Watch out, David. Consequences are coming. 

This is where my mind starts to get COMPLETELY BLOWN AWAY. David makes no excuses. He simply says, "I have sinned against the Lord." He acknowledges his sin. He repents. And Nathan's response is this: "The Lord has taken away your sin. You aren't going to die."

The Lord IMMEDIATELY wipes his slate clean. David doesn't have to prove himself, or do community service, or pray a long-winded prayer. He simply repented and the Lord removed (and forgot!) his sin. 

THIS IS GRACE. Grace is getting something you don't deserve. David didn't deserve to be clean! But the Lord happily made him clean anyway. 

  • Now remember, David totally messed up. He was an adulterer AND a murderer. And yet the Lord made him NEW! If He did that for David, how much more will he do that for us!!???? God FREELY LAVISHES grace upon His children. On me. On you. We don't have to earn it. It. Is. FREE! We can be clean too!!

The story continues. 

Although David's sin was removed and forgotten, David still had to endure consequences for his actions. Bathsheba's child died, just as was prophesied. There are consequences to every sin.

  • There is a small part of the story when David is mourning this loss that really sticks out to me. In chapter 12 verse 20, it says that after he mourned he got up, went into the house, and worshiped. WORSHIPED. Can we just let that sink in for a second?? David has committed these heinous sins, lost his child because of those sins, and YET gets up and WORSHIPS THE LORD??! I don't know about you, but that is totally convicting to me. I don't know how many times bad things have happened to me and I've done everything BUT worship. The Lord is faithful and deserving of our worship REGARDLESS of our circumstances. 

He was faithful to David, too. 

Not long after this, Bathsheba gets pregnant again and David is the legitimate father of this child. The child is called Solomon, and the Lord loved him. 

Solomon, it turns out, is a pretty important dude. You see, he appears in a crucial place in the New Testament... right at the beginning:

The genealogy. Of. Jesus. 

God used David's horrible situation to bring out something beautiful: Our Savior, Redeemer, Salvation, Emmanuel, God With Us. If it weren't for David's sin and the consequences of that, Jesus' story would not have happened the way it did. How COOL is that????? 

So the fact of the matter is this: It doesn't matter what you've done. There is no sin or situation that is too large for the Lord to deal with. 

I'mma say that again. 

THERE IS NO SIN OR SITUATION THAT IS TOO LARGE FOR THE LORD TO DEAL WITH. 

Jesus has the power to make you clean. He has the power to heal you and bring restoration in your life. But more than that, He has the power to take your messy situations and turn them into something.... beautiful. 

He is faithful. He is good. And he is ready to go with you on a mind-blowing journey of grace.

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“Grace, then, is grace,–that is to say, it is sovereign, it is free, it is sure, it is unconditional, and it is everlasting.” ~ Alexander Whyte





Sunday, January 6, 2013

Immeasurably More

Well, it's been about 2 years since I blogged anything. Surprise! I'm back! 

Okay okay... so I'll be honest. I could not for the life of me remember my password to this thing. So mayyyybe I would have been back sooner if I had..... but who knows. 

Today I took down my picture wall, which was littered with photos of middle school and high school. 

Embarrassing, really. I'm not really sure how I managed to have real human friends during those times, because I was a hot mess. Like, zero cuteness was happening then. 

I should have done this sooner. This wall was strewn with my past. The old me. I would walk by this thing every day and think.... Man.... things have changed. I have changed. Who are these people again? ....gross. 

Since I stopped blogging the last time, the Lord has constantly been renewing me and transforming me more into his likeness. I'm astonished to look back and see who I used to be... but I stand amazed at how far I've come! 

If you had told me in middle school that this year I would be going on a mission trip to Guatemala, being on staff at FUGE, and STILL in college, I would have laughed at you. If you had told me that Jesus would be the most important thing in my life, I would have rolled my eyes at you. But it IS HAPPENING!!!!! 

My story is a story of transfiguration. I used to be dead... not breathing. Asleep. Cold. Unfeeling. Dark. BUT GOD has taken me out of the grime and mud, set my feet on a rock, breathed his LIFE into me and now I am ALIVE! Breathing! Jumping for joy and singing praises. Jesus is my Rock, my Sustainer, my ever present Comfort in trouble. He has my trust. 

And I believe that he has the power to do IMMEASURABLY MORE in my life than he already has. If he's transformed me this much.... I tremble in excitement to think what he will do in the next 5, 10, 20 years! 

I also believe that he can do this in your life. Do you? Are you putting God in a box, and thinking he can be limited by your limitations? I encourage you to put your trust in Him. He can take ordinary people and let them do extraordinary things, and his power is inside of you!!

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, unto HIM be GLORY in the Church and in Christ Jesus throughout ALL generations for ever, and ever!" -Ephesians 3:20-21

Amen.